Tools4Wisdom Planner Review

I’m obsessed with planners, it’s sad but true. I am a note taker and a list maker, if we have anything to do or anything to plan… you better believe I’m writing it all down! This planner is fantastic, ugly… but fantastic! I dig the weekly planners where you can keep track of times of appointments and activities. Want to learn more about this great planner? Check out my review video below!

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When the Days Are Long

I heard this quote the other day, “The days are long, but the years are short.” It’s so very very true. Especially on days when the kids are acting up, you can’t get anything done and your stress/anxiety meter has already gone through the roof. So hear me momma’s, listen well…

Your job is important. What you are doing is hard, really really hard. But you persevere. You dive head first into this life of never-ending diapers, mending boo-boo’s, mountains of laundry, crushed cheerios in the carpet, toys scattered EVERYWHERE.

Some of us face long nursing sessions with fussy babies.

Some of us face grumpy toddlers with grumpy attitudes.

Some of us have “threenagers” or even “fournagers”.

Some of us have actual teenagers.

Some of us can’t seem to keep an inch of our homes clean.

Some of us have anxiety and frustrations at any sight of untidiness.

Some of us face postpartum depression and anxiety.

Some of us face prenatal depression and anxiety.

Some of us haven’t showered in days.

Some of us deal with our husbands being deployed for months on end.

Some of us deal with changing shifts and routines that challenge our children.

Some of us have children who have disabilities.

Some of us look in the mirror and wonder where the woman her husband married went.

Momma, you’re going to be okay. Take a deep breath, wipe your tears away and hold your head high. You’ve got this. Know that you are loved. Know that you are being prayed over. I don’t have all the answers, and I fall apart every day… but I’m praying for you.

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Being Mommy is Hard.

I’m going to attempt to put into words what I’ve been feeling lately, if not for myself but for someone else out there that may need to read it or feel that they aren’t alone. I’ve been struggling a lot lately and honestly I couldn’t pinpoint exactly what it is except that I’m overwhelmed and lost and lonely… and so many other things.

J is considering going back to school, he is leaning towards Computer Science, which if you know his current career you’ll know that that is a HUGE difference from what he’s been doing. He’s worked really hard to get to where he is as a Certified Dietary Manager, but let’s be honest… this job runs our life. There are days, like today, when people don’t show up and he’s stuck filling in because no one else is willing to help out. So he’s there ALL DAY. He misses out on so much of our children’s lives, but what else are we supposed to do? With this new endeavor however I’m afraid of how much more time he is going to miss, and frankly I don’t like feeling like a single parent. I will not discourage him from pursuing his dream though, I want him to be happy and I want him to succeed. It’s going to be hard for all of us, but I know he can do it.

With that said, thinking about J following his dreams and pursuing goals that better our family it’s made me really think about what I’m doing. So I’m sitting here at my desk this morning, the kids were screaming and yelling at each other, Bird was asleep on my lap after an unusually long nursing session and I had just received an email from J stating that he was going to have to work a double. I lost it. Tears pouring, heart pounding, sweating… those same emotions coming up that I thought had went away. Anxiety attacks are the WORST. What am I doing? What is my purpose? Is this all my life is going to be? Changing diapers and refereeing fights?

I know. I KNOW. Being a mother is so much more, and truly, honestly I LOVE it. But every now and then I find myself questioning that. What exactly am I doing as a child of God? Is my sole purpose to raise my children up to know Him? Am I supposed to be doing something else? I have so many dreams, so many that I have to put on the back burner until my babies are old enough to not need me as much. I’ve dedicated myself as a homemaker, stay at home mommy, home school teacher, etc…. but some days I feel like I’m just treading water.

As I’m typing all of this out, Bird is again asleep on my lap, Boogie is asleep, and Bubby is screaming at me from his room. It’s bedtime and he fights it with everything that he has. He is EXHAUSTED, and I HATE making him stay in his room and scream. The pain that that brings me is unreal, I’ve never let my babies cry it out or left them long to fuss, it’s just not in my nature to do that. But I know that in Bubby’s case, the moment I walk in there and comfort him and walk away again… it’ll start over and repeat, over and over and over. This sweet boy of mine is so hard to parent, I love being his mommy, but being his mommy is not for the faint of heart. He challenges me and overwhelms me and makes me scream at the Lord, “Why?!”

But then… that little boy takes my cheeks in his chubby hands, kisses my lips and says, “I love you so much mommy.” Or he will look up at me with those beautiful hazel eyes and smile that cheeky little smile of his and it is all worth it. It’s hard, so very very hard, but so very very worth it.

I know I’m just going on and on about random things, but I hope that someone out there reads this and knows that they aren’t alone. Being a mommy, especially to strong-willed little ones…. is hard. It’s incredibly scary, it’s overwhelming and if you’re anything like me… some days you have to lock yourself in the bathroom and cry. Some days it takes everything I have to not turn on Netflix and let them sit like zombies in front of Wild Kratt’s all day. Because being mommy is hard. So very very hard.

Will you pray for me tonight? I’m praying for you.

Three and Counting

Do you know what drives me insane? No, really, what truly drives me mad? Being told over and over and over that my hands are full. It’s not true! Sure, there are days when I feel like I’m drowning in this life of a mommy and days when I think I’m not cut out for this God given job. But then I look at the faces of these three beautiful, precious babies and I know… my hands could never be full with them.

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You see, God puts desires in our hearts, we don’t always know what they are at first, but slowly He reveals them to us. If you ask some of the people I spent time with in high school, they’d tell you that I had no intention of having babies. Don’t get me wrong, I loved kids… as long as I could give them back at the end of the day. Then I met my future husband and God started knitting those little desires and placing them in my heart.

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And one by one they keep coming and blessing my life more abundantly than I ever could have dreamed. Those desires, those beautiful, precious desires… and we’re not done yet. I believe that when in my heart I feel done having these babies that that is when the Lord says I’m done.

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So, you see, it drives me CRAZY to hear someone say, “Boy, you have your hands full!” Because no dear one… my hands are not full. My hair may be frazzled, my clothes unkempt, my eyes a little crazy; but my hands are busy and well used. These hands of mine change many diapers, soothe boo-boos, braid hair, brush away tears, cradle babies… and I could go on and on. These hands are far from full, just very very busy. My heart… it’s full, but I guarantee you I can make room for one or two or three more.

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So, next time you see a family of three, or four, or five… or MORE, don’t tell them they’re hands are full. Instead tell that frazzled, unkempt momma that she is doing a good job. Tell that crazy-eyed daddy that he’s abundantly blessed, because we don’t need to hear you say our hands are full. Nothing could be further from the truth.

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Out with the Old…. In with the New…

I’m sure you’ve noticed the lack of personal posts in the past year. I’m not going to lie.. blogging has become a chore. I’ve had a lot more products offered up for reviews and giveaways and I guess I felt obligated to do it. That’s going to stop. I have 5 or so reviews due this month, two of those will include giveaways… but after that I’m going to limit those to baby/kid specific items and probably one (maybe two) a month. Beyond that this blog is going back to what it used to be. About our growing family! When Boogie and Bubby were itty bitty like Baby Bird I posted monthly updates on them, and as you can see… Baby Bird has been left in the dust when it comes to those updates. I want to be able to make a book with all of our family posts for our children to have when they grow up… so that has to change!

So what’s to come? Probably a few posts about my boy. Bubby is by far my most challenging child, this little boy of mine has a nice set of lungs on him, it feels like lately all he does is SCREAM. And when I say scream, I mean blood curdling, ear breaking SCREAMS. It’s awful. And honestly, I haven’t a clue as to how I’m supposed to handle that.

There will be posts about home schooling, Boogie is 4, and we will be starting more kindergarten based stuff when the public schools start back in August. Though we won’t be on the same schedule, I wanted to have time between now and then to get my act together in regards to school.

I’m hoping to go back and post some late updates on Baby Bird, she’s growing like a weed! Can you believe she’s almost 5 months old! Yikes! Where did the time go?

So… bear with me as I get back to my old blogging self! Toodles!