Ok. So J is back at work, today was his 2nd day back, and Boogie KNOWS something is up. She must miss daddy rocking her to sleep after her middle of the night feeding, because she is bound and determined NOT to sleep. She will NOT sleep in her bassinet. She did great in it the entire time J was on vacation, now she refuses to sleep! So we are back in the recliner, but I’m hoping to transition back to the bassinet after I catch up on my sleep! I only got 2-3 hours yesterday, last night I got a bit more because I went to the recliner earlier in the night. Let’s pray Boogie is just being ornery for a few nights!
Currently, Boogie is asleep in the moby wrap… the only way I could get her to sleep yesterday, and apparently the only way she will sleep today. Goodness!
My munchkin is up to 7.7lbs as of yesterday, according to the Wii Fit. She is growing like a weed! I know I mentioned that yesterday, but I wanted to add that when I weighed her, I also weighed myself… and I’m down 4 more pounds! With that said, I’m not as worried about seeing the number go down, I’m more looking forward to seeing my clothing size go down! I can’t wait to go shopping w/Janelle to get new clothes! EEK! (I love buying clothes… J HATES it, lol!)
Anyways… with the exception of some sleepless nights, we are doing really well. I’ve found that between Boogie, school, and keeping up with the laundry and housework that I don’t have as much time to spend with friends… especially the Flints! I got to visit with them this week, and it was WONDERFUL. I MISS them! I practically lived at their house all of last year, so it’s strange not seeing them almost everyday! We will be booking our cabin SOON for our May vacation with the Flints, and I can’t wait! I’m not looking forward to Boogie being almost 5 months old at that time, or the boys being a year and a half… the older twins being 7, or Joseph turning TEN… ugh. But the vacation is going to be a blast!
First of all… we took Snickers to my inlaws house. They are going to keep her until further notice, and I know she is 100% happy there… before Boogie came along, Snickers was Jerry’s (my father in law) girl. She ADORES him… so yea, very happy with that! But get this… Snickers leaves and now Mudgett is an ANGEL. He is being so good! So we’re going to give him a chance, and see how he does as a single dog in our household. He will get to see Snickers when we visit Nana and Papa Grey… so all is well in doggy world.
Last two nights with Boogie sleeping in the bassinet have gone fairly well. I don’t get as much sleep as I did with her sleeping on my chest in the recliner, however, I sleep deeper with her in her own bed, so I feel more rested! Success!
I also tried one of Boogie’s cloth diapers on her today… and they are still kind of big, and she’s still wearing it… so I don’t know if it will leak with the bulkiness just yet. I will update on that soon however! Here are a few pics:
Last night was mine and Boogie’s first night alone… daddy was asleep and resting for work today and Mamaw was at home sleeping and resting for school. I wasn’t scared or nervous about taking care of Boogie… I mean after taking care of James and Jonathan when they were itty bitty makes taking care of my daughter feel like a breeze, but I was a little worried about getting sleep to make it through today. Our biggest issue right now is that Boogie absolutely hates sleeping on her back, she hates her bassinet, she’s not quite big enough for the bouncy seat we have… but she LOVES to be held of course. So basically, my chest is her bed. She sleeps amazingly when she’s held. Up to 3 hours at a time sometimes, so I’m sucking it up and letting her sleep because it means that I actually get some good sleep too. I’ve been sleeping on the couch with her because one, it allows Justin a full nights sleep without being woken up by our crying baby, two, it’s easier to prop myself up on the arm of the couch then it is against the wall behind our bed (we don’t have a headboard), and three, everything I need is right where I need it. However, our couch is not that comfortable, and my back is definitely paying for it. My father in law has this huge cushy armchair that I just love… and then they have another blue armchair… so we asked if we could borrow the second chair in hopes that I might sleep more comfortably with Boogie on my chest. Well, Poppa Grey is allowing us to borrow his beloved giant cushy armchair for about a month until we can afford to buy a huge chair of our own. Thank you Poppa Grey!
Anyways, last night went pretty well. Boogie was up about every 2-3 hours, I changed her diaper, fed her, and went back to sleep each time until J got up for work. After that I stayed up for a couple of hours and then took a cat nap later that morning. I must say that I feel very well rested for having gotten up so many times last night. I don’t feel like I’m going to crash the way I did after coming home from the hospital! The rest of the morning was pretty much routine like our night was, then we went with Mamaw and Papaw to have Boogie’s bilirubin levels tested again, and we should find out those levels tomorrow morning sometime. We took our first mini outing to get breast pads… LOL. I breastfed in ‘public’ for the first time… kind of. I was in the car, but it was difficult with a blanket… I really need to invest in a cover! Now we’re home, J got some quality daddy/daughter time while I took a HOT shower to ease my back pain, and now Boogie is asleep on my chest as I type this blog.
A lot of people told me not to wish Boogie was here before my due date, to just let her grow and enjoy my time without a child… that there would be nights when I would want her back in my belly… that there would be days I would desperately want a break. No offense to any of those people, but they were so totally wrong. Despite the lack of a full uninterrupted nights sleep, no time for myself, and being cooped up in the house, I wouldn’t trade this for anything. Years of TTC, months of negative test after test, and dreaming of holding a son or daughter in my arms… nothing can compare to the joy and love I feel with my Boogie in my arms. Her cries are a miracle, her sleepy smiles are a miracle, even her poopy diapers are a miracle. I am blessed. I cry because I’m unbelievably happy and rejoicing in the life I am living now. I was made for this.
I am so incredibly uncomfortable, and unfortunately that means I cannot get to sleep. I am so blessed and thankful to be carrying a healthy, growing little girl… but I’m at a point where I just want her OUT! I would prefer to have her here waking me up every few hours to change her diapers, feed her, and comfort her… atleast with her here, being awake would have a purpose! Tonight my lower back is just killing me, my hips are aching, and frankly…. my boobs HURT. No matter how I lay, no matter how many pillows I gather around me, no matter WHAT I do… I can NOT sleep.
Ofourse, Justin is laying beside me snoring up a storm… and even Snickers and Mudgett are in the crate at the foot of my bed SNORING. Yes… dogs snore. Rather loudly actually!
I’m just tired of being pregnant… and I’m tired of hearing “She’ll come when she’s ready!”, “She needs to keep growing!”, “Women would kill to be in your shoes… appreciate this time!”, “It could be worse!”…. I KNOW all of those things… doesn’t make me feel ANY better. Sorry! I want her OUT!
I’m also really afraid that my morning sickness might be coming back… if you didn’t know already, I had morning sickness until 32 weeks. So basically, I have had 5 weeks of being pregnant WITHOUT puking…. then I wake up this morning feeling like I’m going to be sick. I cried because of it… I’m so OVER morning sickness. Did I mention that I was blessed with pimple free skin this entire pregnancy as well? That was GREAT! But wait…. in the past week I have had pimples break out all over my face… horrible painful pimples that make me feel like I’m in high school again. Ugh. Thank you hormones.
I’m pretty good at whining and complaining… but what can I say? Everyone needs to just let it out sometimes! I’m going to go sit on my yoga ball and try to rock or bounce away this back pain… and then hopefully I’ll be able to lay down and get some MUCH needed sleep. I might even sleep all day tomorrow… who knows. Too cold to be outside anyways… AND it’s supposed to snow. Oh joy!